One week ago today I embarked on a life changing journey to motherhood. Through the labor and delivery of my healthy baby boy my life has been forever transformed. I have an inner strength that is undeniably with me at all times especially when called upon and surrendered to. I have an expanded heart that I can only hope will remain this open and more throughout my lifetime. I’ve been amazed by my body’s fascinating ability to create and foster life as well as birth life through a deep mind, body, soul connection. It’s beyond my wildest imagination to see and feel my body experience such miraculous changes so quickly and with so much grace. It’s beyond mystical how alex and I have stepped into our new role as parents with ease and trust. Life seems brighter than ever before and far less smelly than I once thought parenthood would be. In fact farts, hiccups and poos have never had the power to make me laugh and cry as much as they do now.
I’ve laid in bed with my sweet Nova for an entire week, it’s been the fastest most precious week of my life. Gazing at this beautiful being has made me more present, vulnerable and in love. The best gift of all is actually having a mini family that’s apart of this whole macro family we’re all blessed to be a part of. The sweet tender moments of cuddling together, singing songs and sharing meals has been a dream come true. being exposed to so much joy can’t help but leave me feeling vulnerable but I try hard to not let my mind corrupt these sweet moments of bliss. It’s an ongoing practice to be aware of the mind trickery that occurs throughout the day but that’s where I get to practice the power of present moment, in return this seemingly curse is transformed into an opportunity for growth. I’m realizing ever more that the more present I can become the less room there is for fear or doubt, a lesson I was confronted with and practiced during my home birth of sweet baby Nova.
For those of you interested in the birth story you can check out this link to a video I made. I’d love to answer any questions you might have.
left to right: Doula- Caroline (http://carolinemckeown.com)
Midwives- Lyssa, Molly & Lauren (http://www.birthsanctuary.com)
Center: Me, Baby Nova & Alex
So much love,
Ps. Nova was born on April 1st @ 2:49pm, weighing 8lbs 3oz, 21′ long and a 14″ head
Photos by Christiane Ingenthron of Photo Poet Studios